Giving Up Childhood Friends?

I'm 17 years old, and I'm about to graduate high school. My friends that I have been very close with since grade school are starting to become nearly strangers to me. I feel so sad realizing this, but I don't feel as bad about because they're also...

My Really Bad Day

It's summer and I wake up to the mauve sky and sun spreading it's rays over my white sheets. I stretch and wake up. Summer is supposed to be filled with joy and there is supposed to be no reasons to complain. I wish it were, like when I was a kid. I...

Ups and Downs

How long is the emotional roller coaster going to last? I just want to be over him already. It just seems like he's never going to leave my mind. I even had dreams with him in it. I go to the gym and I still manage to think about him. The hurtful part...

In distress.

In distress Hello my name is Allan and what I am about to do I have never done before so I hope I get it right this first time, now where to start a few weeks ago my landlord decided he did not want me as a tenant and came by the house and cut...

Champion in the light of day

I have to address this racing fear of being alone because it's just overwhelming me right now.  It's consuming my thought and rationally I can stand back and say 'that's just ridiculous' but i'm not at all rational at the moment.  As much as I want to...

Can We Love Someone That We Don't Know About Each Other?

I don't know why, but I love someone who I don't know with each other. I just know him, as an idol, not as a friend. He doesn't know me yet. But, I think he's the one for me, he's a God-given for me. He likes my answer of my prays. Can he be someone...

Slightly Psychotic

It's a rather sad moment when you're staring at your facebook, wondering where all your friends are.. Yet it is even sadder when you know that your 'friends' are not really friends at all, rather they're people that want something from you. It's...

Tired...

I know I haven't been on here in a while and I apologize. I was on vacation for about a week.  I went to visit some family and it just drained me. I'm still trying to recover from it. I know it sounds crazy that you can get drained from family or a...

How To Overcome The Devil Strongholds. (Part 2)

  We can recognize that a stronghold exists in a believer when we see RECURRING HOSTILE THOUGHTS, FEELINGS or BEHAVIOR PATTERNS OR HABITS. If a believer uses deceit, intimidation and manipulation to always get his way, he may be controlled by...

battling bulimia ☀

For the past year now I have been struggling with bulimia ..it's always been quite a struggle for me ..so many thoughts running through my head wondering if I should quit my bad habits or just keep on hoping that I would feel better about myself..i...

is it so hard to find someone who will just listen?

coz that's all i want, all i need right now. i don't need advice, or sympathy or suggestions or judgement. Just simply someone who will listen. I find it very hard to talk about my problems, but lately i've been really needing to do so, but it seems...

Nothing But A Empty Shell.

Life is getting hard. Sometimes you can try so hard at something and so prepared, and still fail. Failing has never been an option in my life but lately I feel like I am failing. I am so I don't know how to describe what I am feeling. I guess I am...

"The Unconscious Mind"

    I once wrote a college paper about the meaning of dreams for a psychology class. The conclusion I came to was pulled from the studies of Sigmund Freud. His theory was that whatever we try to supress and avoid during the day, is what comes out in...

A new girl in town.

So I've recently thought of the idea to blog. It's really new to me and I feel that it will help me to discover who I really am. It's cliche, I know, but I need a way to express my thoughts and feeling without the hassle of my friends. Seen as it's...

GOD Is Good

GOD Is Good            I Found An Online Budget App Yesterday & Found Out I Owe More Money a Month Than What I Have, It Was No Surprise ... I Give to Various Charities Every Month & Refuse to Stop, So I Decided 2 Give More a Month Than I...

...

i hate that feeling you get when someone you care about  is hurting and there is nothing you can do about it because its not physical pain its emotional...

I can't escape my thoughts

I hate the image I see, suicide has played on my mind since I can remember but everytime I look in the mirror the erge to slit my wrists and end it all gets increasingly powerful. The lumps of fat balenced on top of my hips, the wide thighs and the...

I dont know what to do

I cant do this anymore I miss him so much and he is dating my best friend and she did this on my birthday I cry ever day about it and I'm never happy anymore I turn to older guys and sex and drinking to numb my sadness and he seen me today and waved...

The First Year

I am finally back on thoughts.com after a very long time. Why have I not been blogging? Because Life.   So let's play catch-up:   Long Term is out of my life completely. I have not spoken to him in months now and I know that he has a...

Emotions

I am to emotional. I think about every little detail. I try not to but I am who I am. Things havent changed I am always saying things will be different but it always turns out the same. I want more than this feeliing of lonliness. I want it all. Maybe...

I feel over whelmed with emptiness.

I'm not sleeping again, I can feel myself slipping, slipping back into that numbness. I feel heavy and the lack of sleep isen't helping. I don't feel suicidal I just feel empty like it's too much effort to move or think. I hate this it's unbarrable, I...

Lightweight

So since the fact I havent talked to mr. perfect for over a week; I had gotten the opportunity to. One of my best friends texted me asking when I was coming 'home' to visit. She told me 'mr. perfect' said I wasnt visiting that weekend.  So tipsy...

CONNECTION TO THE EXTERNAL ENVIRONMENT

CONNECTION TO THE EXTERNAL ENVIRONMENT    Our connections to our environment are all the thoughts and feelings we have about the whole world. And it is our choice of which thoughts and emotions we connect to all occurrence outside our selves. ...

If you loved me, why'd you leave me?

Reminding myself of all the times you let me down at the last minute. And how I hurt I felt, as if I wasen't good enough or worth the time. I remind myself of how your actions showed that your words were all lies. I remember being scared of...